I had a great weekend with my hubby & baby boy! We had so much fun with all the September birthday visiting &, of course, all the goodies that came along with those visits. There was cake, cookies, pasta, chicken nuggets, bread, spinach dip, cinnamon rolls, etc. Now the question is, did I do good or did I cheat? Before I answer, I’m going to sum up the weekend and reveal my answer at the end.
On Friday evening, the hubs, baby and mommy drove 3 hours to our destination for the night. I didn’t get a chance to work out, but I still had less than my 1400 calorie goal for the day and it was all good food. Nothing too unclean, all filling & healthy.
Then there was Saturday and Brooke had her toddler’s birthday party! So, my little family drove an hour from the hubs dad’s house to the party so that cousins could play & the birthday boy could open presents. But before we met up with the gang, the hubs mom wanted to meet for a birthday lunch. She took us to Applebee’s where we shared spinach dip & chips. Then I got the grilled chicken penne. At the party there chicken nuggets & cake. For dinner, we went to a Japanese restaurant and I had the BEST thing in have ever put in my mouth. It was crab meat fried in batter & I believe a little cream cheese and topped with what tasted like sesame sauce & white sauce. DELISH!
Today was the Sunday ritual of going to the hubs grandparents house for lunch. And, since we had 5 people’s birthdays to celebrate, we had all kinds of food. Cinnamon rolls for breakfast. Lunch consisted of fried chicken, cream corn, biscuits, okra, peas, broccoli casserole, ice cream cake & coconut pie.
I had 3 people tell me this weekend that I was looking good. I had 2 people actually ask what I was doing, how often, what types of food I was eating etc. I was feeling so wonderful bc I know how hard I’ve been working the past few weeks. I even noticed myself in the mirror & could tell I was looking more curvy & like I actually have a figure again & not just a big, fat piece of shit. It felt good hearing all the compliments people were giving me about how proud they were of me for all my hard work & dedication. (For those of you just tuning in, I actually started my journey to weight loss in January but just this past month changed my routine & started kicking my bootay with the sis-in-law). I finally started feeling skinny again, even when I know I am not where I need to be & I’m nowhere near skinny. It was safe to say I felt a lot more comfortable in my own skin (and my clothes!) this time around. It felt really nice.
Now, back to the question. Did I cheat? Was I bad or was I good? Did I control myself or did I let the cravings control me? How did I do this big birthday bash weekend?
And the answer is………..
I cheated. I cheat, cheat, cheated. I cheated in the morning, afternoon & evening. I cheated with snacks, I cheated with drinks, I cheated all around. I had all of the above mentioned foods. And it was great!!!!!
However, I did control myself. In only had half the pasta dish at lunch Saturday. I did eat about 5 chicken nuggets at the party but only half a piece of birthday cake. For dinner, I did eat the crab dish but had sushi and about 4 bites of steamed rice instead of a big meal. Then today I did have a cinnamon roll & orange juice for breakfast. I also had all the bad, southern fried food for lunch & a little of both the ice cream cake & coconut pie. And we had fast food for dinner. But, I stopped when I was full & didn’t stuff myself. I didn’t let food control me, I just had what I wanted. I didn’t tell myself “no” I just told myself
“only this much”.
I’m not going to lie, this has been a tough month to not cheat. I’ve had baby showers and birthdays & still have more birthdays & another baby shower. When you go visit family, you can’t say “I can’t eat what you cooked me for dinner for free”, so you have to accommodate & just control. You can’t let it happen every day, or even every weekend, but you can’t keep yourself from everything you want. My hard work bus obviously paying off because I don’t cheat this badly every weekend. Some weekends you can’t help but to cheat & other weekends you can decide not to cheat at all. All that matters is that I’m making progress. That, and now that I had so much bad food this weekend, I can’t wait to get back to eating good tomorrow & getting back into my exercise routine. And that’s a great accomplishment. I’m glad I feel like puking bc I won’t forget how I feel this coming weekend & it will help me be better. I felt like such a fat, gross tub of lard before this weekend and, somehow, I was veryyyyyyyyyy bad on my diet & came out feeling great about myself. All I wanted was for others to notice my body changing & they did. I also had some photos taken of me where I am not that embarrassed of myself.
The above is a photo of me yesterday that the hubs sister took. And the below is one she took back in June at my sweet boys bday
You might not be able to tell, but I can see a big difference in my arms & right around my bra line on the side.
Either way, I’m super happy & proud of myself. Could I have been better? Yes. Could I have skipped on cake & other bad goodies? Yep. But did I? No, because I controlled myself & realized that my journey is not an overnight one. It will take time for me to be able to get to where I need & want to be. And if it’s going tonnage time, you might as well endulge yourself ever once in a while 😉
Hope yall had a great weekend! I’m not looking forward to work tomorrow but in am looking forward to healthy eating again & busting my big booty for 45 mins of cardio & 30 mins of weights! I’ll be sure to keep you posted on my progress this week.